Hello ARISE family,
how are you all doing? Can you believe it’s a year since we graduated? Amazing, time goes by so fast, and still our LORD hasn’t come yet! Let’s stay focused on the mission we have, for he has PROMISED to come back soon and we want to meet him in the clouds, right?
You know, the last months have been up and down in my spiritual life, somehow I couldn’t figure out how to fit everything in one day, bible studies, university, studying for exams, calling people, cleaning the house… I was tired when I got up and tired the whole day, couldn’t really concentrate on my devotions, repeated the same phrases while praying and started doubting if this whole “religion thing” was just an imagination and nothing real. Most of my university colleagues don’t believe in God, in creation, the Bible,… Especially the last week was really hard. We were on a snow camp in another state, skiing the whole day, presentations at night, studying for the exam tomorrow afterwards. Whenever we had the time to be in our room, our neighbor’s listened to music really loud and I didn’t have a silent minute that whole week. We came back yesterday (Sabbath) and I missed going to church, spending time with other believers. At night I was just sad and this morning I remembered our graduation, the whole ARISE session, all of you – my brothers and sisters, and I started crying cause I was so unsure what to do and what to believe. I started playing the piano and singing hymnals, opened the book at page 322 “Nothing between”
My eyes flipped over the text and I started crying again. The last months I’ve been trying so hard to live a “good life”, but failed. I realized again that although I didn’t mean to, I again made myself the boss of my life. I knelt down and started praying and asked Jesus to enter my heart and make me more like him. I asked him to be the one sitting on my throne, asked him to fill my heart with his spirit and to cast out everything that’s hindering.
Lying on the floor crying I heard a small voice telling me to open the Bible at Isaiah 43. I started reading the first verse and had to cry even more. What wonderful love is this, that he who created us, calls us by our names – we are HIS. With every verse I read I could see the fathers love for us and also, that I can trust his word. Chapter 44 is amazing, I tell you, God has humor, it answered my question if he really can be the only one and true God, or if I’m stubborn and thinking in a wrong direction… God says, how can people take the same wood and use it for warming themselves, making fire to bake bread and yet cut a god out of it and worship him!? How can we worship something we created? Jesus Christ is the true God because HE created us and this is why we worship him. And he did not only create us, he loves us and redeemed us. I tell you, I was astonished anew, God is great!
God lifted my burdens and gave me joy and peace in my heart this morning. He wants to live in ALL of us, never forget: There is power in the blood (hymnal294)
Remember David’s sermon: Keep getting up? This is what I was thinking of this morning.
Falling is a part of walking, and struggling a sign of life! Jesus promised in Psalm 145:14 that he is with us when we fall and that he is the one giving us strength to keep getting up! (read Steps to Christ, p.64!)
Brothers and sisters, I wanted to share my little experience with you cause I’m sure that some of you might feel the same. Let me tell you: He is faithful!
I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL AGAIN, EITHER HERE ON EARTH OR UP IN HEAVEN! Please keep fighting the good fight, keep studying, keep praying, keep sharing and keep taking the time to be still and listen!
I love you all,
my prayers are with you
Lissi